Have my heart broken :'(

Having your heart broken sucks, MaJoR! And why would I even want this on my bucket list? Well the way I see it if you don't know what pain feels like you wont know what pleasure feels like... So that is why I want to have this on my list... Now I would love to have my heart broken just once however that has not worked out that way... BoYs AgGgGh!!! So with me I can only like one boy at a time, I am not a expert juggler haha. So I can count how many boys that have captured my heart on one hand. I am not the prettiest or the thinnest girl out there and I would consider myself a tomboy and a tad awkward... So normally you wouldn't expect to look out my front window to see a line of boys waiting to confess their undying love for a girl like me... and you would be correct. There has really only been 2 guys that I have been really crazy about but me being shy I never really acted on my feelings. The first guy I liked for 10 years and the last guy I have like for 6... Once I told the last guy how I felt and he didn't feel the same way... I actually heard my heart break in two. I find it really hard to express my feelings out loud... But I write it in poems or songs. so here is a song I wrote for S.

this is called Unrequited love

You came into my life not knowing just what you have done
My heart on the line, wishing I wasn’t the only one
I would have loved you with my whole heart
Now when I look at you it just tears me apart
You are the jack of all trades the king of rejection
Looking into the mirror at my reflection
I say


I can’t do this much longer
People say it will only make me stronger
I just wished you felt the same way too
Letting go is the only thing I have left to do
It’s tearing me up inside my soul
Just to be with you was my goal
This thing called Unrequited love
This thing called unrequited love sucks


You were something special, someone I liked to be around
Now when I see you it just makes me feel down
You were everything, you made me want to live
Your were someone I wanted to be with
I guess you couldn’t have cared less
Because of you now my life is a mess
I say

I cant do this much longer
People say it will only make me stronger
I wished you felt the same way too
Letting go is the only thing I have left to do
Its tearing me up inside my soul
Just to be with you was my goal
This thing called unrequited love
This thing called unrequited love sucks


I love your smile
I love your style
The way you walk
The way you talk
I just can’t get enough
I am just going to move on
To find out where I belong
Because you don’t feel the same way
I am not going to put my life on delay
Time will only tell
This is putting me through hell
I say

I can’t do this much longer
People say it will only make me stronger
I wished you felt the same way too
Letting go is the only thing I have left to do
Its tearing me up inside my soul
Just to be with you was my goal
This thing called unrequited love
This thing called unrequited love sucks